ever had moments when your self-confidence decides to take a plunge into the ravine..a slow plunge which will eventually hit the bottom if no one gives the rope a tough tug?

cheers for now…on that matter.

anyway..

it’s my bestie’s bday today!

my dear jo, i’m not going to be cryptic now. hehe.

you said you wanted a little bit more. i’m still learning the ways of a magician so i can’t ship the whole of ipoh to aussie for you. i, conveniently, forgot about your birthday till you reminded me about it (yes yes hit me when you’re back) and i have never done anything much for your birthdays anyway. i don’t understand why either, but with you, i have always trusted that you know i’m sincere. i suppose i did take you lightly in many ways in the past, but hey, we had one hell of a journey in life together ay?

8 years..not short but not long either. just enough to get bored of each other and discover ourselves together. 1 year apart, we have changed. hehe. we’re more open and…mushy *you said that!*. haha. thank goodness we were never like that in school, people could have thought we were lesbians! phew.

so..here’s something:

things i could do (pardon the grammar mistakes):

if i am a painter, i could paint a beautiful penguin and dedicate it to you. you are the only one we’ve ever called penguin.

if i am a song writer, i could write a song with this title, “The Guys in Jo’s Life”. I’m sure it would be a best seller man, you hopped from clay aiken to hayden christensen to viggo mortensen to kaka! talk about “banyak hati”. i’m surprised i remember.

if i am a photographer, i could jump into a time machine, going back and taking many many many photos of the times when you did crazy stuffs…just you alone. i could have let you be the queen. which reminds me, i still have the f2 Dato’ Kelana (i think) photo. remember?

if i am a poet, i could pen down “A Day In Jo’s Stomach” and we could all feel the…joy *ahem*…and agony *that’s more like it*.

if i am an author, this would be on the shelves – “She Said ‘Welcome Onboard’ To Her Cake – A Tale of A Food Lunatic”. oh yes jo, i remember…!

if i am a storyteller, i could tell the story of you; how big an impact you are in my life, how you stood for your own principles when someone defied you, how you have corrected me, how much you have taught me, how responsible and right you are, how intelligent, kind, funny, lame, sarcastic, helpful, sincere…how perfect you seemed to be sometimes.

if i am a teacher, i could teach my students the values you held by God. the blessings you have been to others. the angel for many. the heart you have for others. the joy and sorrow you share. the knowledge so unselfish and generous.

there are so much more i remember..but nah, some stuffs are best left unsaid for memory sake. so long we all know it. hahaha…and i might do any of the above some day. hehe.

jo, you’re truly Godsend.

happy birthday you!

…and you can kill me now.

i’ll see you in june/july…whee! we can go for winter shopping!
and now, for the next greeting…

to CT!!! my mentor..eons ago

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOT!!! Have a BLAST!

<3 tusuey xin